Friday, August 20, 2010

Be True

We were pushing on it being almost a year since I've had a job, just shy of a few months. This summer has been filled with many things, and filling out applications has been one of them. I just couldn't seem to get a break. I filled out application after application but no call backs. Not one. I was talking to the women down the road who is with the owner of the restaurant/bar we were in, telling her about my job woes, and she slyly slide over an application. I am now a waitress at their restaurant.

Is it nepotism? Hm, possibly. Do I care? Hm, no! These times are tough, and we need to help each other out in anyway we can. People have resorted to lying, deceit and even violence. I think resorting to a friend helping me out is pretty innocent compared to some things people have been doing to get by. I am so grateful she gave me a break and decided to interview me and give me a job. Believe me, I am so so grateful. I just wasn't expecting waitressing to be so....hard. I've had three days of training and I've already had tears prickling at the back of my eyes. Not to say it's an impossible job- not by any stretch of the imagination. I honestly think most people could do this job if they dedicated themselves too it, and that's exactly what I'm going to have to do.

Being a waitress is hard in the sense that I need to know the restaurant inside and out. I have to try and give people what they want and make their meal pleasant. I need to know the menu, I need to know what comes with what dish, i need to know what the food LOOKS like. It's difficult for someone who has literally only ordered about a handful of things off the menu at the restaurant. I'm slowly starting to get it. I've taken tables, orders, given food, refilled drinks and done the cash register without anything blowing up, someone yelling or something breaking. A few minor mistakes, but it's to be expected.

I think I could be really great at this job, I just wish I'd had time to train earlier. These training days are cutting into my school hours, so now I have this I have to deal with on top of a whole new world (COLLEGE) I need to get use to. It's like walking into a new world where you don't know the rules and then getting employed at a shop in said new world, where all the rules for working are different. It's pretty nerve wrecking, but I usually pick stuff up quick, so I'm hoping that skill doesn't fail me for this.

Besides that little stresser in my life....I'm pretty excited for college. I may not be moving away, or going to a huge school, or living in a dorm with someone, but I feel like this experience is a significant one in my life. Despite the huge dollar sign on this experience, I am going to make the best of it. I want to suck every opportunity I can from College, because you're only young once. I have my first class this Monday, and I'm going to lock up that shy girl from middle school like I've learned to do and be the best welcoming, out going person I can be.

I think people believe that once you're older, you stay the way you are- like you're personality is in a rut. Nonsense, I say. I think you can be 11, 21, or 81 and you're still becoming a new person each day, shaped by the experiences we encounter and the things we reach out to in our lives. I want to wake up a fresh person each morning. Someone who is still who she was yesterday but also has an open eye and blank canvas for the days to come. I want to always be open to changing my ways, seeing new points of view, making new friends, and learning new things. If I can't wake up one morning and now want to be silly, or laugh or skip around when I want to skip...then who am I really? Whether I am a waitress, a college student, a daughter, a best friend- whatever I may be, I want to always be true to who I really am. College is going to help me with this, I just know it.

I want to join groups, I want to study with classmates, I want to laugh with new friends, have dates with boys that make me smile. I think this is a door opening to a wonderful beginning.


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